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Something In The Water

by Cut Your Losses

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At face value, Something in The Water could be about a number of things depending on the person listening to it, which is one of my favorite things about songwriting. I love that I can take an emotion or an experience that is completely personal to me, write about it, and watch it take on an entirely different meaning to someone else. Upon first listen, it could be about recovering from the fallout of an unhealthy relationship. And for some people it may very well resonate that way. For me, it’s about grappling with my mental illness. The repeating line in the song: you make me wish I was dead is being sung directly at myself. Anyone who has battled mental health issues understands the sentiment of constantly being at war with your own mind.

When I began writing this song, I was at this sort of crossroads with my mental health. From an outside perspective, I was functioning in all the necessary ways. I was doing all the things that needed to be done, I was showing up where I was supposed to. I had been operating that way for so long, that I had nearly convinced myself that I was okay. But on the inside, I was experiencing all these new symptoms that had developed over the course of a few years. My thoughts no longer felt like they belonged to me, I didn’t feel in control or even inside of my own body. I spent an inordinate amount of time attempting to decipher what was rooted in reality and what wasn’t. I didn’t trust myself or my own perception anymore. It left me confused and exhausted and not one step closer to the enlightenment that I was so desperately searching for. At that point, I still didn’t have even an inkling of an idea that I would later be diagnosed with Bipolar, long after this song was written, long after the entire album was almost done. In retrospect, it all adds up.

I’ve always been very open about mental health related topics, both in real life and on social media, but this is something that I haven’t been quite as forthcoming about. I think that’s because there’s still so much stigma around Bipolar and what it really is. When people hear that word, there’s a specific idea they conjure up in their minds of what a person with Bipolar looks like or acts like. It is one of the most misrepresented mental illnesses in the media and it has quite literally ruined my life on multiple occasions. Yet I still don’t talk about it very often with anyone outside of my innermost circle which only consists of a handful of people, several of which are blood related to me. But that silence, that fear of openness, ends here with the release of this song.

I began my journey on mood stabilizers while we were in the studio recording the vocals for Something in the Water. The freshness of my diagnoses—finally having a label for the thing that had been plaguing me for years—created this renewed sense of connection to the lyrics. This song, and our entire album actually, is a lot darker and heavier in content than our previous work—and that is precisely our intention. Painfully honest, bare-your-soul song writing is going to make some people uncomfortable. I believe it should be just uncomfortable enough to get the message across and I think that’s what we accomplished with this project. At least I hope it is.

We chose this song to be the first single for the album because it encompasses the themes that are woven throughout Reflections of Ghosts; Self-exploration, self-loathing, mental health, trauma, toxic internal dialogue, how all of that affects interpersonal relationships. I want this song and this album to spark difficult conversation. I want people to listen and take whatever they need from it and to know they are not alone and there is nothing wrong with them. Mental illness doesn’t have to be a death sentence. It is an obstacle that you may fight every day for the rest of your life to overcome, and we should all talk about it a lot more. I don’t believe in the term “oversharing.” Get that shit off your chest, it’s quite freeing.

- Isa

lyrics

Pick up the pieces of the person that I used to be,
Fragments of memories are slowly escaping me,
Haunted by voices that ricochet in my head,
Tortured by the silence that fills the space in my bed.

You make wish I was dead,
You make me wish I was.
You make me wish I was dead,
You make me wish I was.

I think there’s something in the water.
Each step I take I’m getting farther from the truth.
I’m more than just somebody’s daughter.
There must be something in the water.
Ah oh

It’s in the shadows and it’s always just a step behind,
I can’t remember when you took away my peace of mind,
Paranoia’s got me looking over my shoulder,
Every time I think that I’m safe, you’re getting closer.

You make wish I was dead,
You make me wish I was
Dead!
You make me wish I was dead,
You make me wish I was.

I think there’s something in the water.
Each step I take I’m getting farther from the truth.
I’m more than just somebody’s daughter.
There must be something in the water.
Ah oh

You are the voice in my head
(You make me wish I was)
You fill the space in my bed.
(You make me wish I was dead)
And all my words will bleed red.
(You make me wish I was)
You make me wish I was dead,
you make me wish I was.

I think there’s something in the water.
Each step I take I’m getting farther from the truth.
I’m more than just somebody’s daughter.
There must be something in the water.
Ah oh

I'm more than just somebody’s daughter.
There must be something in the water.
Ah oh

credits

released April 14, 2023
Lyrics by Isabella Martinez
Written by Isabella Martinez and Alexander Criminger

Isabella Martinez - vocals, guitar
Alexander Criminger - vocals, guitar
Joseph Martinez - drums
Joshua Lines - bass

Produced by Ray Ortiz and Cut Your Losses
Recorded and mixed by Ray Ortiz at Lubeck Studios
Assistant engineer and drum editing by Griffin Guge
Mastered by John Naclerio at Nada Recordings

Cover design by Tracy Conoboy
Cover modeling by Molly Compton

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Cut Your Losses Chicago, Illinois

Your friendly neighborhood, chicago-based, emotionally unstable, Pop-Punk four piece. Formerly Skylight Cinema.

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